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Recently it feels like something within me is out of place..

I dont really know how to describe it..

But, it kinda makes me moody..

What ever I do doesnt feel natural..

Yeah, call me a bitch cuz I am bitching on my own blog right now..

Cuz seriously, where else can I turn to?

I never talked about my feelings to my family..

The last time I did made me ended up in the principal's office..

[when i was in primary school]

I dont feel like talking about it to my friends..

As if they understand what the hell I am going through

[Probably late puberty or a Guy version of PMS]

I tried many ways to get rid of this weird feeling..

[Like....]

going to the Cinema..

going up Bukit Padang

watching tons of video's about cats [particularly anime about cats]

the love from porn also doesnt helps [I know its stupid but it was worth the try]

being a troll in youtube or facebook [ended up even more pissed]

kicking my little brother ass in video games

beating up my lil bro and grandpa [Just some medium punches]

piss my grandmother off

lifted weights [to a point i cant even raise my arms now..]

getting chased by Dogs [im serious]

doing prank-calls

blogging

breaking stuff

and etc lah

none of that fucking made me feel better..

seriously fuck off betul..

but while chatting with my Lil Sis just now..

it kinda cheered me up..

I never knew it was as simple as that..

All I needed was someone to talk to..

Talking about our times in NS and some other topics

Made me feel lighter, inside..

Gay as it might sound, but some of you I know will understand..

After talking to Vivien today

and another person yesterday..

I think I manage to get most of this weight out of my chess..

I've realized that there are 2 type of girls in this world..

and if you are reading this..

Gawd you have problems mate..

Seriously Go get a life..

Do you enjoy reading my complains?